Monday..Monday

I was not going to post tonight, but I do have a couple things to share and I am wide awake. We are an hour ahead from home in WA state and I don't think my internal clock has adjusted quite yet. We had to be up super early this morning. It was after 6:30 am when I finally pulled myself out of bed. Needless to say I went to see the doctor in sweats, t=shirt, hoodie, and tennis shoes. No make up and hair with a barrett. Not usually a style that anyone sees me in unless it is my daily mom's group meeting. I was able to get some coffee and half a bagel with cream cheese in me before we caught the hotel van over to the hospital to catch the shuttle to the clinic. It was chilly, but the sun coming up over the mountains was a gentle reminder to me, that whatever happens, no matter what, that sun is going to continue to come up each morning and go down each night. When there is no consistancy in your life and you are hating the changes that are good for you, but hard on you, remember that thought. Where ever you are, whatever you are doing, the sun will continue to rise and set each day.

I woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning and I didnt want to talk to anyone. My first appointment was with a resident diabetes doctor and I am ashamed to say that I had no patience with her. I knew more then she did and I made sure she knew it. She was really trying her best to figure out my blood sugars and I was beyond frustrated because I had already tried everything she was suggesting. Also she was not familiar with my pump or how a pump worked. I am sure I was not a pleasant patient. She did actually leave and go get a diabetes specialist. He was super nice and I liked him immediately. He ordered some tests, mentioned that the blood sugars were not caused by diet alone and once we figured out what the real illness was we could address that and then work on blood sugars. He did order a test that I have to have Friday to make sure my adrenal glands on my kidney's are working. He said he was sure they were fine, but since I was there, it made since to check.

After seeing him, we went to scheduling again and talked to them about my appointments. We got a lady that worked some magic and I am getting into the dermatologist this week. We called her a miracle worker. If all goes very smoothly I could be home by this time next week..wouldn't that be great? Of course there are still 6 appointments left on the schedule and any one of those can cause delays if they order a new test etc. But that is ok..at least we wont have wasted time. After that scheduling time I had to go back upstairs to wait and see the nutritionist. This was an appointment I was dreading the most and it ended up being very informative and educational. Things have changed a lot since my last nutrition appointment. I can have juice, and drink my veggies. I think that is what I am happiest about. I am not a veggie or much of a fruit eater and I know that this has been a worry for Karen and other friends and family. But the nutritionist was awesome and had some great ideas for working veggies into my diet in ways I hadn't thought of and it ended up a good appointment. The only hard part was admitting my huge weight loss and not wanting to eat. I got a bit emotional as I explained some of the stuff going on in my life and appetite and food cravings were not there. But again she had some very creative idea's for overcoming some of that and I took a lot of what she said to heart.

After that appointment we were done for the day, but we had our stuff locked up and headed outside. The sun was shining and there was a nature trail that had signs of what things were and I really needed to walk off some of that emotional stuff, so we meandered the path and looked for the cholla cactus. There were so many. I really was surprised how many of them were close to the pathway. Karen poked one with the stick and it definitely tried to grab on. I threw a rock into in and it exploded like popcorn. The only day I didn't bring the camera of course. We saw something scuttle very fast from the path way to under a bush..we don't know what it was. We know it wasn't a bird because we saw more then 2 legs, but what ever it was it was big and creepy. We ate lunch at the clinic and then headed back to the hotel. I have been working on thank you cards like crazy. I only have 8 left to make and 13 left to write in and I will be completely done.

Tomorrow I have no appointments. So we are going to take the day off and catch a bus to downtown Scottsdale. We heard that there are art galleries, shopping stores, and the fashion dist. So it should be quite the adventure. Expect a lot of pictures tomorrow. I seem to tire easily so I am sure we will be back way before dinner. Which will be yummy because Karen has another Crock Pot meal up her sleeve.. Oh one more thing before I go for the night..I am reading the book "Boundaries" by Dr. Henry Cloud & Dr. John Townsend. I would recommend it for anyone. It has been very easy to read and has some great advice. Well that is all for today. Sorry no pictures. Love to all! God bless you and keep you, becca